It was the last thing Maria Guadalupe Vasquez expected to see on the television screen.
It was her son's name, Army PFC Kristian Menchaca, during reports that at least two American soldiers had been captured by enemy forces linked to al-Qaeda in Iraq.
A few days later, came the news that Menchaca had endured brutal torture before he was killed on June 19, 2006.
"It's the type of pain that you can never overcome - never," Vasquez said. "No matter how many years go by. Now, with the death of Osama Bin Laden, all the painful memories came back. It makes me very sad."
Soon after his death, several videos showing the gruesome suffering that Menchaca and PFC Thomas Tucker went through before they died, were leaked over the Internet.
Vasquez said it's something she has never seen, and never plans to.
"I feel so bad when people tell me they've seen that video because they saw how my son was killed in Iraq," Vasquez said. "But they don’t understand my pain."
The news of Bin Laden's death has given her a small sense of relief but she wants more.
"The president needs to show those images of Bin Laden's death so we can all rest assured that he really is dead," Vasquez said. "I want to know if he suffered as much as my son suffered. They had no regard for my son - why should the president have regard for Bin Laden?"
Vasquez said she and her eldest son still have to fight through the pain of not having Kristian around, but they focus on the pleasant memories of him alive, rather than how he died, as a way to honor him.
"I would like for people to remember Kristian as I remember him," Vasquez said.
"As the happy young man he was, who loved spending time with his family and of course eating Mexican food. That's what I want people to remember - not the video of his painful death."
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